That's kinda how I feel tonight, at home, working, doing laundry, fighting with my friend, not talking to a lot of my family.
We're past the point where drama was fun. It used to be, back in the day. When you're young you thrive on that stuff. Now it's just a headache. My girlfriend has gone through this recently as well, lotsa family drama over things that should just be her choice.
I get it. We all have a past. We are all insecure. We are all battling the demons that have creeped in over the years. But let's not take it out on each other. For God's sake, can't we all just grow the hell up and get along?
I always get confused between Lethal Weapon and Die Hard. Probably because they were both movies that I loved but had to watch secretly as a JW. Murtaugh always said he was too old for this shit. But...he kept doing it.
Bruce Willis always said "yippee ki-yay motherfucker". Two completely different statements that always had exactly the same outcome. :)
I might someday get back to the place where I like to take risks. Where I like drama and the unknown and all the emotions and excitement that comes with that. Right now though, I'm okay with just being me. I'm okay with Thursday nights early in bed, with not dating, with walking away from the people who don't quite fit into my life.
If you've walked away from everyone once, you can easily walk away from anyone. I'm sorry this isn't an upbeat post. I'm just like you, ups and downs. And today wasn't the best day.